I don’t understand why people

(guys) have to be such cowards. 

Yes, I’ll actually understand if you don’t want to be with me. You live there, I live here..it’s just too hard and somewhat pointless. I get it.  What I don’t understand is how you can completely ignore me out of the blue. One day you’re texting me, calling me telling me you miss me and you love me and all that bullshit. All of of sudden, nothing.  I really don’t fucking understand it.  

I can even sometimes brush it off if you don’t contact me for a day or so. But I know you got my calls, I know you got my texts. I mother fucking know that you have your phone on you at almost all times.  It breaks my heart to know that I cross your mind when you see I called or whatever, yet you don’t give enough shits to respond.  

Don’t be a fucking coward, just tell me you don’t want me right now.  Tell me you’re having too much fun without me, or that you found someone else. I would much rather that than the bullshit you’re doing.  

I still care about you so much and it would just mean so much to me if you just responded to me, telling me how you feel and what you want.  

That’s all. 

Just another rant.

It really sucks liking someone, or wanting to be with someone who you can’t possibly be with. R’s all the way in Louisiana, while I’m stuck here in Texas for the next three months. Idk..i just hate it. We don’t even talk that much anymore because he’s always with his friends, or at a party.  He’ll say he misses me or he “loves” me, but i know i’m slowly becoming a distant memory.

And to make things worse, I just saw a picture of him and his ex girlfriend hanging out.  He told me he hasn’t ad sex with anyone, but those are just words. How would I know if he was lying? He’s technically not my boyfriend so i don’t know what type of “relationship” we’re trying to hold on to (or I’m trying to hold on to). I wold be so hurt if he got back with his ex. Like, so hurt.

I just don’t know if this is all worth it..constantly waiting for his calls and texts, for what?! I care about him so much but I think I’d be better off letting him do his thing and not worrying about him for summer, and seeing what happens when we go back to school.

Idk i’m just rambling. 

#lonely  #distance  #missing you  

The Light - Common

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iainteventrippin:

So the radio does play good music, the fact that this was played on the radio really caught my attention!

I’m really tired of being in Texas.